Handsome Trash - 26
“…”
“It was two weeks. Not two months. Not two years, but two weeks. I was looking for you again.”
He let out a long, deep sigh.
“It’s killing me to think that everything I feel and remember was an illusion. It’s killing me that you’re still alive and standing in front of me, but that you pretend not to know me.”
His gaze, which had been looking out the window the entire time, slowly shifted.
“You talk to others just fine, but you didn’t talk to me, then. You don’t even want to talk to me now.”
Swallowing hard, his gaze shifted to Hyewon.
“… No, I don’t.”
Eunhyuk’s head slowly hung toward the ground.
How many bottles of liquor had Eunhyuk consumed by himself when she was accused of not knowing how to drink?
As Eunhyuk’s eyes tightly closed, she could only see the top of his head. Hyewon spoke up with great difficulty.
“… I didn’t want to go down the same path.”
Hyewon listened to Eunhyuk’s breathing as it came in steady, even breaths.
“I felt stupid waiting all my life for my grandmother to find love.”
The tears she’d been holding back out of habit came so easily after meeting Eunhyuk.
“You don’t know how cruel your grandfather was, Eunhyuk. Whenever she could forget, he would come back and shake her, making her live like a shadow.”
She bit down on her trembling lips and swallowed hard.
“If he had just treated her like he loved her, then, yes, my grandmother wouldn’t have had to be so lonely. I could have seen that side of her.”
She vomited out the details of her grandmother’s lonely life.
“But the chairman didn’t have the woman he loved so much as a wife or a mistress. He kept her hidden and had s*x with her whenever he could.”
The story he doesn’t know. The story he wasn’t supposed to know.
“And so, for the rest of her life, she waited for your grandfather. She loved him, she loved him so much, and then she died.”
She never walked down the aisle.
She was never properly loved.
“I don’t want to live like that, Mr. Cha Eunhyuk.”
She couldn’t love him because she saw her grandmother’s miserable life.
“I want to live a normal life, to be loved by the one I love, to stand side by side and draw the future.”
Hyewon couldn’t bear to see the pain of her grandmother, who was dying of loneliness and still longing for love.
“I can’t dream of such a future with Mr. Cha Eunhyuk.”
She was anxious and afraid.
She wondered if her love would end with eternal wait.
“I was cowardly.”
She couldn’t say it. That his grandfather was a cruel man.
“I was bad.”
She couldn’t tell him that she didn’t want to follow in the footsteps of her grandmother, who was more family than anything, even though they weren’t related by blood. But she also couldn’t say that her life away from him was all that happy.
“I’m sorry, I know I should have explained.”
If Eunhyuk held on to her, she felt like she would give him her heart right then.
If he tempted her with sweet words, she would fall for it.
She just…
She just wanted to hug him a lot.
All other reasons aside, she knows how it feels to be alone.
*.*.*.*.*
Hyewon cried until she fell asleep, her memory cut off.
“Wake up, Kang Hyewon.”
She couldn’t remember when or where she had fallen asleep.
When she opened her eyes at Eunhyuk’s call, an empty bottle of liquor filled her vision, followed by a pounding headache.
“Hungover…”
Hyewon rubbed her forehead when she noticed the room service food set out on the table.
She sat up to try and wake up, but Eunhyuk didn’t let her. He grabbed her arm and pulled her to the table.
As if that wasn’t enough, he suddenly put silverware in her hand.
She could tell he was getting ready to go to work by the way he was dressed, but after the serious conversation they had yesterday, she didn’t know what prompted him to be so kind.
She scooped up a steaming bowl of soup, but she wasn’t hungry.
“I think I got a little carried away last night, so forget it.”
As if on cue, he made up an excuse.
She thought it would be awkward with the conversation they had last night, but it was something else that bothered her.
At first, she thought he was going to apologize, which was unlike him.
So why…
“I’m going to a different hotel.”
“What?”
Why was he suddenly telling her that?
Hyewon loosened her grip on the cutlery.
“You were right. I don’t have to wonder anymore.”
“…”
“Because I know why you left and where you’re stuck.”
When he said it like that, it sounded like she wasn’t useful to him anymore.
“I’m done with you, you f*cking pervert. You piece of sh*t.”
She cried so hard last night she felt like she had no more tears to shed, but another wave of tears welled up.
“I told the front desk that my room was a mess yesterday, so I grabbed you to clean it again.”
Hyewon slowly put down her utensils, unable to do anything.
“I had my assistant erase the elevator security cameras yesterday. If anyone asks, tell them. It was hard because Cha Eunhyuk was acting like a dog and a pervert.”
“What are you trying to say?”
“It’s cleared up, isn’t it?”
What did he mean he was leaving? That it was cleared up?
“For the last time, finish your meal.”
What does “last” mean?
She already understood it in her head, but her heart couldn’t accept it. Before Hyewon could say anything else, Eunhyuk pushed his chair away and stood up.
For the last time, she wanted to finish the meal with him.
The words that were on the tip of her tongue didn’t reach Eunhyuk.
“Are you leaving?”
“I have to work, even if it sucks.”
“You’re not coming back here now?”
“That’s what I said.”
After swallowing hard, Hyewon asked, and Eunhyuk answered.
“If it’s because you don’t want to see me anymore, you don’t have to move to another place.”
It was true. If he didn’t look for her, they wouldn’t see each other, so there would be no contact.
“Now you’re being difficult.”
What an unpleasant word.
For some reason, he became harsh and his words slashed through her chest.
“I don’t like holding on and f*cking a girl I hate to death anymore.”
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