Childhood Friend Edification Theory - CHAPTER 1.4 - R19

01.Childhood friends – Part 4

Since Haea had listened from outside and peeked in, she thought it only fair that he do the same. With that thought, Haea fiddled with the hem of her skirt.

“You don’t have to go this far just because you don’t want to lose me. You’re not sure, are you? Won’t you be embarrassed? Won’t you regret it?”

He gently pulled down her hand, which was slowly moving inwards.

‘What kind of relationship do we have?’

At some point she could no longer define it. To Haea, he was family, a friend, an older brother and a younger brother. No, every word that could define a relationship belonged to him. He was everything to Haea.

It was naive to think that they could maintain such a complicated relationship forever. It was a collapse that was unexpected but inevitable. Only Haea hadn’t realized it and she knew that she had hurt him because of it.

“Honestly… I don’t know.”

“Then that’s enough. You don’t have to force it.”

His big hand gently brushed Haea’s hair aside. It was the same hand that could easily grip a basketball with one hand, the same strong hand that seemed capable of crushing the ball. Yet when it rested on Haea’s head, it was soft and light, as if it could be blown away by a passing breeze.

“I want to try it. I want to know if it’s alright if things change.”

“You’re happy enough as it is. Do things need to change?”

“But you’re not.”

“…..”

“Then I’m not happy either. I’m not happy.”

Blue delphinium. The meaning of the flower is ‘I will make you happy’.

The flower that Jaeha said out loud for the first time in front of Haea was all that defined the two of them.

“Shall we do it like this?”

The hem of the skirt, tucked in, caught his eye. Haea grabbed his hand and slowly guided it inside, like a puppy trying to avoid a pile of snow.

“O-our feelings are enough. Let’s just see if we can do this.”

“The order is wrong.”

He didn’t move. It was impossible for Haea to win against him in a test of strength. Fighting with all her might in an obvious tug of war, Haea let go of his hand and whispered softly.

“If you don’t want to, that’s fine…”

“Spread it with your own hands.”

“What?”

“Spread it yourself and show me.”

“……”

“I won’t force it. I won’t be the first to do it. That way you won’t have any excuses.”

Despite the desire in his eyes, his expression remained emotionless, as if he could turn back at any moment.

“But I…”

“Have you changed your mind about showing me?”

“No! It’s just that… I…”

Even if he was Jaeha, he wouldn’t have known that Haea had no body hair. Thinking of her smooth insides, she closed her eyes tightly. The hem of her skirt fluttered up.

“You have to take it off to show me.”

“I-I know…”

She should have taken them off first. Trying to remove her underwear with her legs spread was rather awkward. Lying on the bed, Haea lifted her hips slightly. As the lace panties slowly slid down, her reddened v*gina was revealed. The cold air made her insides flinch and tighten.

“Ah.“

Jaeha groaned softly as he looked at her white, hairless skin. He seemed a little surprised. His gaze was fixed on the slightly trembling, dark interior between the bright red folds. It was like being struck by lightning, making her dizzy. The not-yet-dry, damp area glistened, and his dark eyes were tenaciously focused on exploring it.

“Was I… wearing clothes?”

He said after visually caressing and sucking all over her body, turning it bright red. When asked if she had only seen the g*nitals, Haea’s face became tearful.

“I-I…”

“I was the only one n*ked then, too.”

This meant that he wanted her to undress more. Even though he was fully clothed, he wanted her to be completely n*ked. But there was no need to feel offended; he had done the same thing.

“Shall I take a shower first? You also…”

“That’s not the point. You’re just trying to buy some time.”

His voice was cold as he reproached her. Unlike usual, he showed no leniency. Jaeha glanced at the clock and climbed onto the bed.

“Isn’t it fine?”

He echoed her words, adding a mocking tone.

‘See? I told you to be careful with your words.’

Haea’s face heated at the words that flashed across his eyes. She felt even more embarrassed for not being able to keep her own words.

“You’re fine.”

Whispering words that could be interpreted as either stubbornness or certainty, she covered herself with the blanket. Underneath she began to undress. The sound of her clothes rustling was tantalizing. There was no reason for her to undress under the blanket when he would see her soon enough, but she had no excuse. After all, she hadn’t seen him undress either. Click. The sound of her bra hook coming undone echoed. Blushing, she carefully placed her neatly folded clothes and buried her white bra underneath.

His pale eyes, as he silently watched the whole process, were like the flames of a goblin. After wriggling under the blanket and being completely n*ked, Haea slowly pulled the blanket back.

Her body was like a mermaid’s that would dissolve into foam if placed on the snow. The surgical scar on her ch*st didn’t detract from her beauty. The graceful lines of her white body shimmered, making his eyes grow darker. They were so dark that it was impossible to see anything, just like when he was a child.

“I…”

“That scar can never be a flaw. You know that.”

He whispered to her as she hesitated and covered her scar from the operation. It wasn’t a problem at all, and he brushed it lightly.  

“But still…”

Her pale hand remained on her ch*st. Without looking at it, he encouraged her to continue.

“Spread your legs wider. You must show me.”

Though his eyes alone were overwhelming, her heart pounded strangely. Haea fumbled as she mimicked his earlier stance, Haea bent her knees slightly and spread her legs. Her hand still covered her ch*st, but Jaeha didn’t remark.

His exploring gaze gently brushed over her raised cl*toris. The rough treatment had made it swollen. The dark, hellish flames descended upon it.

“It’s a mess. Why is it so chewed up? Your teeth couldn’t have reached it… Did you press it with your nails? Did you just recklessly damage it in the heat of the moment?”

“Sob…“

“Why are you upset? If you couldn’t do it right, you should have learned it first. Is crying after being hurt the only solution? Didn’t I tell you to take care of your body?”

Jaeha’s words were sharp. Although he was known for his blunt remarks, he usually spoke softly to Haea.

There was a reason for his current sensitivity.

It was because of the warfarin that Haea had been taking after her heart valve operation. While it helped keep her blood flowing smoothly by preventing it from clotting, it had the side effect of poor blood coagulation. And Haea experienced this side effect more severely than others.

“That’s got nothing to do with it!”

“Why shouldn’t it? It’s the same body.”

“It’s hardly that much…”

“Do it like you did before. This time I’ll look properly.”

“Properly?”

“Yes.”

“Heut…“

Jaeha was acting like her doctor, which made Haea feel like a student being examined for homework. She wondered if she could do it properly under such pressure, but his relaxed expression, with his chin raised and leaning lazily against the headboard of the bed, remained unchanged from before.

Heat pooled in the fiery spot. Haea lowered a hand and cupped her cl*toris between thumb and forefinger, shaking it. Her fingertips turned white with tension. She saw the tight contractions between her knees. His face, watching her trembling hand, looked ghostly in the night.

‘Jaeha is watching me.’

It was much more embarrassing than she had imagined. Showing the most private part of herself to a childhood friend who was closer than family. She had no idea what state of mind she had to be in. But an unexpected thrill washed over her. It was embarrassing, but not unpleasant.

‘I can allow this as well.’

The grim face and intense gaze made her body tremble even more. Still, it was okay. She felt it wasn’t so bad because it was him. The heat in his watching eyes made her dizzy. When Haea roughly stirred her inside, a small amount of force was applied and she let out a moan.

“Jaeha… I… Uhh!“

Her fingernail, covered in beige gel, dug sharply into her cl*toris. Her thighs trembled and the blanket tangled between her toes.

“Ahh! Uhhh… uhmm!”

Startled by her rising voice, she bit her lip hard, but her vision turned red.

Ahh. Ahh. Feels good!

Haea moaned, turning her head slightly to avoid his persistent gaze.

“You have a bad habit.”

Her hand, which had been pinching and pulling sharply with thumb and forefinger, abruptly let go. As she arched her back in frustration, the accumulated fl*id inside her flowed out.

“Ahh, uhh…“

“They say in early fetal development both boys and girls have the same genital shape, but that’s not a p*nis, Haea.”

He whispered ‘p*nis’ in an elegant pronunciation to her, who was shivering and panting from the residual heat. Even without fully touching him, his high body temperature was transferred to her. Haea’s cheeks quivered and she lowered her head.